John 10: 10b
…I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. (NIV)
…I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly. (NASB)
…I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of. (MSG)
Full. Abundant. More and better than we could dream of. I have read or heard this verse probably a thousand times, in all of it’s versions, about how Jesus came to give us full and abundant life. Beautiful. But rarely have I stopped to consider what this kind of fullness and abundance looks and feels like in the reality of my days. In any version, with any number of interpretations, this verse draws our spirits to the kind of life that we long for – a life that is more and better and fuller than the one we would otherwise know. Our souls long for the kind of fullness and meaning and satisfaction offered in knowing Jesus as the hero of the story…that we are part of something bigger than ourselves. So, why does life sometimes continue to feel empty and meaningless? Or just busy? Why do we get to the end of the day and wonder what it all was for? Or lay our tired bodies down and wonder why we’re here?
I’ve been pondering these things in days that seem to be bursting with fullness of every kind. My days right now, with a newborn and four other children under 8 years old, are full in every imaginable way. FULL of joy. Full of tears. Full of noise. Full of laughter. Full of boo-boos. Full of kisses. Full of love. Full of hurt. Full of mistakes. Full of apologies…Just so full. Life is literally bursting at the seems. I am abundantly blessed. I know that this kind of fullness can’t really be what Jesus means when he says he came to give us full life, but I have a sense that there is something to learn from this place. I think what I am beginning to see is that, although grace though Christ Jesus is absolutely and completely free, the abundant living we are offered comes at a great cost to us. If we cling to our own abundance (of to-do’s, of worry, of fear, of busyness, of control), we miss the abundance that God offers us, and life begins to feel like too much in all the wrong ways. For me, there are many moments when the fullness of my day does not feel like a gift, when the weight of it feels unbearable, when I don’t have enough hands to help, or eyes to keep watch, or ears to hear stories and questions, or food – never enough food…and I know there must be more to it. There must be a way that I choose to either step forward into the abundant blessing offered to me through Jesus, or to just sit under an abundant pile of “too much.” Whether you have a houseful of children, or one child whose needs and future weighs heavy on your heart, or a desk full of work, or an abundance of grief and loss or difficult diagnoses, or you just read the news this morning, the weight of the world can be crushing…abundantly so. So how can we step into a different kind of abundance? An abundance that frees our souls and makes our spirits soar? A fullness that makes us feel untouchable, because our spirits are secure and our feet are firmly planted in love and blessing? An abundance that makes us unable to keep our lips from singing God’s praise because it is just bubbling out of us?
I see that I can receive this kind of abundance only when I make a difficult trade. It costs me everything. I have to trade in the too-muchness of my life that I desperately feel cannot go on without me. I have to let it go…into the hands of God. I must make a choice to relinquish my control and admit that I am not and never will be enough. And only when I bring my brokenness and never-enough to the Lord can I receive the abundance that lets me live through too-full days with a sense of enough! I have to trade in an abundance of worry, submit to the sovereignty of God, and receive an abundance of peace that surpasses my understanding (Philippians 4: 6-7). I have to trade in an abundance of insecurity and self-doubt and let God wash me in an abundance of promises and sweet truths about how he knit me together in my mother’s womb and knew each of my days before I lived even one of them (Psalm 139). I have to trade in the tension and stress that builds with an abundance of fast-pace and noise and needs, and allow God to bring a slowness and rest to my spirit in the midst of it. Rather than placing my hope in another cup of coffee, I have to lay down my broken, tired body, and allow God to use my emptiness as a vessel for the God who IS love, and the God who never sleeps to pour out his love and grace and energy. Don’t get me wrong, I still love my coffee. But there is a striving of the soul that exhausts beyond sleep deprivation. And there is a freedom of the soul that comes when we allow ourselves to live from inside of the weak and limited fleshy vessels God gave us.
All of this trading requires a difficult trust. It costs me everything that feels like it makes my life work. But I think I’m seeing that the truly abundant life that is offered to us in Christ, is found on the other side of letting go.
Life feels abundant in all new ways lately. I feel beyond myself in almost every minute of my day, and as I am emptied out, God’s abundance is all I can live on…I need his filling every minute. And to live in that place of constant dependence on Him is sweet blessing. The abundance that Jesus offers us cannot be “icing on the cake.” We can’t add it on top of our self-sufficiency. In order to receive the fullness of the grace and peace and joy and love that He offers us, we have to first be empty.
So, today, as the noise builds and the pace quickens, I am abundantly empty of my own ability…and abundantly full of His. Praise be to God.
7 thoughts on “The real deal on abundant life”
I enjoyed this new blog.
My Mother raised 7, and her days were full……
As yours are, and will be for the next 40 or 50 years. You are booked!!!!!
And I have no doubt the world will be a better place for your efforts. Bill Pz
Amazing! So beautiful and so true! Bless you, Jenny! Love you!!
On Mon, Aug 8, 2016 at 8:56 AM, Raw. Mercy. Mama. wrote:
> jennymslattery posted: “John 10: 10b …I have come that they may have > life, and have it to the full. (NIV) …I have come that they may have > life, and have it abundantly. (NASB) …I came so they can have real and > eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of. (MSG) Fu” >
Thank you so much Jenny – I needed this message today xx
Jenny, this is so beautiful! I am amazed that you have time to write. So glad you are taking the time to encourage all of us with your wonderful words. Much Love! Ginny
What I can write in response feels inadequate, but your posts take me to a thoughtful, contemplative, peaceful place. I am so grateful for your willingness to share your journey. It helps the rest of us to pause and consider our own. Much love!
So good Jenny. I’m feeding on your words and being nourished! Love you so!
Beautiful! Challenging and encouraging! Love you and grateful for your insights. Yes I too want the fullness Christ offers as opposed to the “fullness” of day to day life that can weigh heavily on me.